your. SMILE(:

Cleo! Shall add it to my new fav magazines list. The content is really good. Haha at least for me. There are liek juicy stories. And gossip girl. equally juicy. Haha all the bitching and everything, and the loveeee. Hmm school started. But I'm actually working hard already! Finished humanities proposal today with jiale. I rock, she suck ;p i've been listening to many english and chiense songs. And even more praise and worship songs by Hillsong. Music is love. Oh the other hand, i got quite pissed off actually. Because i do not know why, but people like to look when you are smsing or when you have a message coming, without permission. i think it's really rude and all. And it's damn awkward for me to liek 'push' them away. And then i only got one new message coming, then this retort came 'Wah new boyfriend ah?' I was like wtf? NEW? Okay i know you know abt all the break up shit. But then, its not that logn aft tht incident, do you take me as some flirt and all? because that realyl impies this meaning. You are liek trying to say that I'm that kind of person. And i said 'no, duh' very nicely already. And then leaned over and looked at my phone screen. And announced to the whoel world ' but guy leh! HAHAHA' -.- Huh so? It's not liek you dont sms guys? And i was asking question, so i was expecting a reply. -.- So every guy who smses me are my new boyfriends then? Sorry, but i'm really super senstive when it comes to this. And you may be reading this or something. No offense. Because even if you think i'm damn not guai to have a bf, or rather HAD a bf, this doenst mean i'm a player, because you are making me sound someone who doesnt invest feeligns in relationship. Well, you wouldnt know how much i love that guy and all. And maybe you think I'm silly or you don't believe me. But thats up too you, please dont make such comments like that. It's actually kind of sensitive.
Anyway. I don't think i should give a shit to this whole thing any longer. It's no good to me. i'm not going to let him expect me to continue to be sad and just pine for him everyday. that's not going to happen, anymore. Esp not what you do to me. until now. I think you aint worth it any more. You were too heartless and cruel. A complete jerk who doesnt have to go to such lengths to hurt me, but you did. Why the hell did i even apologise to you when you were pissed when i shld be pissed instead? I was stupid, and i know tht even as much as i say all these, i will still get emo in the near future. It's inevitable but yeah it'll pass. For now, i'll concentrate on studies and whtever's impt. Soooo i'm glad school started because things are more organised for me. I sleep early, i do work and not just slack and rot at home in front of the computer, having wild imagination almost everytime. So yeah. Good good. Smmore i'm trying to design class tee and psl camp bklet. Hope it turns out alright. Okay haha i'm just trying to encourage myself ;p. Go 402!